Ramblings – Pukes’ Smell Fills the Air

2.28am – Never a good thing to be awake when I already bid goodnight earlier on… Gosh… the whole air is now filled with the pukes’ smell… Little milkie woke up 10 minutes ago, coughed and puked. And now she insisted to SWITCH ON AIR-CON and sleep in the same room…

3.16am – I am still awake and am trying to get myself to sleep after this. Nope, little milkie is already sound asleep, it’s my own problem…

5.53am – Great. She wakes me up when she wants to pee but… >.<

7.05am – Darn! I’m late!!

7.31am – You saw him holding onto your mum’s Nivea moisturiser earlier on and you thought, it’s okay to hold since it doesn’t open that easily (‘cos too slippery). And then the next moment, to your horror, the blue tie was on the floor and he was grabbing something whitish in his hands. *shocked* #neverunderestimateatoddler

7.59am – Snowballing… it’s snowballing again… IT’S PROPAGATING!! Sigh… that bloody hell premium bus 729 just left right in front of me. I am not late. I was waiting there. It was raining. I saw it coming. There were 2 buses stopping in front. It didn’t come near to the bus stop. It stopped briefly at the edge of the sideway and then turned out and left. So here I am, sitting on the public bus, and going to change to a train later, and praying that I won’t be too late…

rainy-day

But I think that I should still be grateful. That I’ve got a seat in this relatively packed bus at this hour. Except that I’m unable to comfortably take out my crafting tools which I planned to. Never mind, I shall take things in my stride. It should still be a beautiful day.

9.08am – I am still on the train… URGH.

Ramblings – It’s a BLANK

7.37am – The leftovers from making little milkie’s snack box.

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8.09am – Same journey again.

5.53pm – Time to go off!! I’ve got my ezbuy items to collect!!

7.47pm – Remember to always check the size of the items before buying and preferably read the reviews in order to not get a shock. No doubt it is quite cute and price is really cheap, it is a tad too small for little milkie already. She had ro hunch while pushing the cart, not that good for her. (Refer to the trolley and the small kitchen)

taobao-toys-check-size

11.53pm – Nitez peeps…

Ramblings – Is it Monday Already?

7.28am – Monday blues… really blues… I can’t believe it’s a Monday already. Have I rested? Maybe I should simply spend the time to rest at home but alas, am constantly in a dilemma between bringing the kids out or staying at home to do something. After all, how many times in a week can you bring the children out?

Anyway it’s a bright sunny day with my mum grumbling at me early in the morning for getting but not drinking the herbal tea yesterday and some other things which I totally didn’t catch. Otherwise everything else looks the same. I’m off to work! Let’s hope the weather will continue to stay nice nice today!

9.42am – Looks like I will have to eat grass for the next 2 months or more. Overspent way too much for last month. June holidays and celebrations. Urgh. Frugal. Frugal. Frugal living…

6.57pm – End of the work day. Am still feeling blue. To be exact, it’s much worse than before. There’s a sense of loss and uselessness. The mind is blank and am stoning at a distance away from 2 persons who are trying to sell something near to the bus stop. Sigh… it’s not good to be feeling this way.

Ramblings – Penny Miser

2.13pm – At times I really wonder why do I still continue to plan this and that and in the end to get myself shot. Am in Bugis area… had wanted to bring the 2 little kids to the SAM at 8Q. But before we reached, the lil’ hub asked to check the carpark rates. Gosh. Something which doesn’t bother me. Fine. Checked and it was quite expensive and immediately his face changed and asked me how long are we going to stay here, and then continued with, “Let’s just go home.”. Great. Don’t expect me to suggest anything anymore. Sometimes I did pity my kids. They don’t have a choice. I just blame myself for being stupid to continue with my choice.

2.23pm – Apparently the thinking process is getting faster and faster. It took him only minutes and a question (“Did little milkie know where we are going?”) to decide to queue and park at somewhere nearby. Sigh… why do I have to suffer this?? I hope its fun or at least the kids enjoy themselves at SAM at 8Q. Otherwise my ears will have to endure again… URGH!

5.23pm – All is safe and it’s so nice to see the kids looking so happy and enjoying themselves on such small rides…

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11.00pm – Tiring day. From painting early in the morning, to the small museum, to eating and taking fun rides, to checking out the new cars and library. That’s it. Batteries’ flat. Goodnight folks…

Thoughts – Grief Over the Child

It all seems like yesterday when he told me that his girlfriend was pregnant and he had decided to take the responsibility and married her. Shortly after, there came a cute little girl. Years gone by and I was rather shocked to hear and see from his FB account that some diseases had hit the girl and suddenly she simply became…

It had been another few years. She’s on life support, I think. She never wakes up but yet they brought her out every now and then… and then… yesterday, he posted that she had gone, gone to another place…

I can imagine how much pain he is in now for if I were to be in his position, I would be devastated. No parents would be able to endure this, not till they grow old. Not even when the baby is still in the mother’s womb…

For the child, I hope you have gone to a nicer place. Take care of yourself too ok?

I have not seen you but I can imagine how adorable you will be. I hope you are fine and had gone or eventually will go to a much better place than here. Don’t worry, you are not forgotten, and will not be. There will always be a place for you in my heart.

Ramblings – How, Now?

7.59am – Have you ever had those experience whereby you tried hard to think and plan but your mind is simply BLANK?

It’s a Friday but it wasn’t exactly one that I’ve wanted. I can definitely do without the splitting headache that I’m having now, most likely due to sleep deficiency caused by the consecutive 2 nights. Asked my mum and she will say, “She’s so naughty, only you will do all these things for her.”. And then the lil’ hub would say, “Who asked you to go and find all these troubles yourself. Just be general and buy a cake will do. You deserved it.”.

Yes, I know I know. The managers. I’m quite done talking to them at times. I could never really see eye to eye with them. How can one only dotes on the obedient one and not the naughty one? Wouldn’t that only caused them to become worse? (But it’s also true that little milkie is getting a little out of hand and pinching is definitely something I don’t encourage, yet wth are you teaching, mum?)

Simply buy a cake? Yes, I could jolly well do that to spare me from all these work but its the thoughts and the process! I don’t get it why is it till now you still can’t get it! But then again, so did my mum. Well, most of the things that I do and like are dumb to you guys anyway, and people who has no targets or much interests in life are dumb to me. So great! We’ve got a common understanding of each other!

Now, where was I?

Ah yes. Sleep. It was supposed to be quite a (poorly) planned Thursday and Friday, with me finishing up the figurines and then baking for tonight. Everything was going fine and I was trying to finish up the Tsum Tsum Sven figurine (without the eyes) when my mum started scolding little milkie. Why? She threw a small ball right at poor little milo’s face, who was sleeping, which woke him up. That was 11.30pm already. Tada!

sven-gumpaste

He woke up. She got scolded. Still tried to hit my mum and me. Pinched my mum and thus I hit her hand and gave her a good scolding. I’m not sure if she listened for the whole session, she was glaring at me. But ah, focus wasn’t on her hitting her little brother, instead it’s on her hitting people when she is the one in the wrong.

Well, that scene was over and she was forced to sleep at 12-ish after I finished cleaning up and bathed. Then there comes the younger one who was so happily screaming and crawling around. I can’t blame him for waking up and so I had to spend some time to tuck him in. That was 1-ish in the morning.

Then the morning came… and thanks to my messy character, I couldn’t find my recipe booklet in the mess, one which I should have put it online somewhere. I don’t know where did my mum put my tights. A baby was crawling around and I had to keep on taking note. An older baby didn’t have enough sleep and so woke up with a big fuss. My mum was nagging at me for not waking her up early (I tried once before and got reprimanded for waking you guys too early). And then I dashed out of the house to find the lift going up, up and up. So I took the stairs and by the time I reached the traffic lights, I saw the bus reaching. And don’t know which brilliant mind was that to suggest going to the other side (5-10 minutes walk) to take another bus instead. Bad decision. I reached and saw a premium bus went off. Was cursing and swearing before I realised, thankfully, that wasn’t the one I want to take. It came a minute later.

Now I’m almost reaching my office and I need food. Set B maybe? What’s the plans for tonight then? I don’t know. Will think later. Crap.

8.47am – Maybe the events started going wrong when I forgot to pass the lil’ hub’s wallet back to him after dinner. But by hook or by crook, I need to bake tonight. I won’t have the time tomorrow…

12.15pm – Crap. The bad luck is still here. Was wondering what to eat for lunch and finally decided to eat my Long John Silver and then I saw this:

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1.09pm – No packets of porridge for baby in this whole building of Vivocity. And I sure am going to condemn this vegetable rice stall at Tuckshop at level 3 of Harbourfront. $6.50 for 2 veg and a fish. Goodness.

3.51pm – Trying to recall an email… sigh… I am so glad that it’s Friday.

4.46pm – Let’s be honest. I really had zero background on whatever that I’m doing. And to ask me to try and fill in the table using the data and little knowledge that I have… hmm… I felt like I’m blindly swimming on my own and hoping to find the shore soon. Sigh…

Ramblings – Just a Dream

My eyes caught upon a familiar face across the crowded room. He’s talking to someone and I’m alone. Why am I alone? And whose house am I in? Are we having some kind of celebrations? As the crowd started to disperse, he finally turned around and smiled at me, as if he knew that I had been starring at him for a long time. I started to walk towards him, smiling too and then as I stood in front of him, he gently kissed me on the lips and then gave me the biggest warmest hug ever. The hug felt familiar too… and I knew I love it… Shane. That’s his name. But why am I here?

*a background music started to go off…*

6.45am – Right… it’s just a dream. I must be too lack of hugs of recent… and it’s Tuesday, which means I need to work…

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