I just got scolded by two person recently. I ought to be scolded, I think, seriously. What am I actually doing? I don’t know. I thought that I won’t be affected, but I still am, very. I just kept denying it. It’s not healthy for me, it definitely isn’t. What am I supposed to do? I don’t know.
I already tried to focus whatever I can on other things. I really tried. Occupied myself with things and such but he just kept on coming back. I missed that. But yet… I can’t have that. And now what have I got? Still nothing.
I am, really tired. Exhausted probably. There’s totally nothing for me to look forward to but yet I still continued. What am I doing? I don’t know.