Dear little milkie and milo,
Firstly, I’m not trying to sow discord here. I’m just simply trying to tell you to choose wisely when it comes to one lifetime partner in the future. Your dad is a, relatively, good man. Don’t drink, don’t smoke and at most play some mahjong (like now) and that’s about it. He loves to save too, which is a good virtue that I hope you guys can inherit some (please, not all), unlike your mother, I. It is definitely a good point compared to my usual, unless I curb myself, spendthrift character.
But as much as I am a spendthrift, as I look at my current financial status now, bulk of my money goes to your livings and education. And the latter is something that I don’t mind providing to you guys especially when I seriously believe that knowledge is really important. If I have the choice and means to be a stay-at-home mum, I would already have done so, so that I can teach you guys myself. Though I can do that, I still believe that certain things can only be taught in school or by other professionals as your mum is generally a half-filled-bucket, i.e. Jack of all trades, master of none.
If you are wondering why I’m writing all these. Well. I’ve been looking at my monthly and projections for the next year or so for the past 30 minutes. Trying to see if I’m able to handle little milo’s pre-nursery fees if I were to start him next year. I would love to, of course, to start him early when he was around 2 years old but it seems like I might not be able to unless little milkie’s school fees were to drop. And then I remembered what your dad reiterated this afternoon. “It’s your money, you decide when you want to start, but I’m not going to pay for it.”
You see… Years back, long before you guys were born, while your dad and I were discussing about how we should handle our finance, I told him that I will handle the kids, for one main reason – I am SO afraid that he will shortchange you guys. Why? Well, let’s just say that he will compare the way he was brought up with the current common way of bringing up children, despite the fact that he did complain more than once that his mum never sent him to any classes before. I’m not saying that he won’t send at all but there will be a limit. Example, he only feels that a kid should only need to take one enrichment and one sports related class. And for things like right brain training is definitely something not beneficial at all. Sorry to say bad things about him, but I felt that he had never expanded his brains and get them exposed to such things, and thus did not feel that by doing all these things, it will actually help in the development of the child’s brain and thus probably aid in their life in the future. And worst still. He has got a stand-by-his-own-theory friend who believes that just by exercising, it will be good enough. To your dad, any method that doesn’t requires any cost, IS a good method.
You know, today, you, little milkie, walked passed the ballet school and requested that you wanted to learn ballet. Mummy had wanted to enrol you in one, previously, in fact I did, and even brought you there with Yi-ma but after that we found out that it was meant for older children. The one for younger children started a few months later but the timing wasn’t right. Anyway, as financially I’m already very tight, I told you to ask your dad, who had agreed to sponsor for your ballet (in the community centre) previously. Sadly, his reply was “ask your mother”. I wasn’t really expecting that. My fault that I should not have raised my zero expectation to something like “Baby, can you help to check those community centre ones again?” (Since it’s not really expensive). I’m sorry to make you feel disappointed, if you does really feel that. And I am sorry that you have to feel that way because I married someone who doesn’t really value the importance of any sort of education. I will try and fight it for you even if I could not afford to.
And my dearest little milo, mummy is trying hard not to shortchange you just because you are born later. I will try and give you the best I can, if not better.
My little milkie and milo, there’s always a balance in everything. Is education or money more important? Both are. So do not be too stringy with learning, for life is all about learning. And listen to my wise words, (try) as much as possible to find someone who has the same beliefs so that you won’t spend so much time trying to fill up the gaps, like what your mummy is constantly doing now. It’s hard work.
Goodnight my two little sweetie. In case you are wondering why your mummy’s got the time to blog, well, little milo had slept and little milkie is going to sleep soon after watching YouTube x 6 (thought she only requested for 1 initially). Sweet dreams, and love you both. Muak.
P/S: The willingness to learn is a choice.